Gran Steak Lounge & The Fortitude of Will, by Lovely Abyss

Gran Steak Lounge & The Fortitude of Will

by Lovely Abyss

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1.	Far Too Tired For Despair, Still Alive Enough For Hope 03:07	lyrics	buy track
Its not worth it anymore
2.	Pray For Me 04:00	lyrics	buy track
W-w-welcome to Gran Steak Lounge please, please take a seat! Your order will be ready in four minutes Fortitude of will (the chorus is gibberish gutturals, the only intelleigable words are "pray for me" repeated) I just wanna feel peace and happiness and love I dont have any of it left oh god this is not a cry for help its a statement, I feel like I'm being raped and torn apart my soul ??? Pray for me, pray for me.
3.	Broken 04:49	lyrics	buy track
Every single day ingle-ingle day (repeated) I just wanna feel safe, feel safe, feel safe (repeated) Its broken, its broken Tell me how you want to die I feel like I am tearing at my face its like I said before (repeated) Everything is broken, please fix me Every single day ingle-ingle day (repeated) I just wanna feel safe, feel safe, feel safe (repeated) Its broken, its broken Tell me how you want to die I feel like I am tearing at my face its like I said before (repeated) Everything is broken, please fix me I just wanna feel, something's not right (repeated) Every single day ingle-ingle day (repeated) I just wanna feel safe, feel safe, feel safe (repeated)
4.	"Gotta Jet" I Said With A Posed Look 02:19	lyrics	buy track
I'm running out of ways to cry for help Captain come back down no ones gonna save you (repeated) Dream whispered, veins popping, no ones gonna, look at this I'm running out of ways to cry for help Captain come back down no ones gonna save you (repeated)
5.	Clandestine Fallacy 03:48	lyrics	buy track
In the dark I see it coming over me I just need someone to sing me to sleep And its all over the news, and I choose what I would use And I don't know my own destiny And I crawl out of the TV set And its red light, green light fuck your bitch I would bury this city to scratch my itch Fortitude of will (Gutturals) The fortitude of will, I'm feeling super ill The fortitude of will, I'm feeling super ill The fortitude of will, I'm feeling super ill The fortitude of will, I'm feeling super ill (I feel like I'm on fire OH) Give it to me backwards captain I want it now, I want it now Give it to me backwards captain I want it now, I want it now Give it to me backwards captain, I'm telling you a story now Give it to me backwards captain while I am clawing at the ground Give it to me backwards captain while we're suffering in town Give it to me backwards captain I want it now And I don't know my own destiny And I crawl out of the TV set And its red light, green light fuck your bitch I would bury this city to scratch my itch Fuck you I don't need your sympathy I'm feeling like a new kind of entity And its not for me I just three weeks down on my knees And its not getting better I just look at the weather And the giant fucking centipede motherfuckers crawling on my walls I feel like God left me years ago fuck you mom, fuck you dad, fuck you family you are nothing but a fallacy ??? God left me, God left me, God left me.
6.	Dog Leash 02:22	lyrics	buy track
Looks like a dog with no fucking leash What the fuck-fuck is going on? (repeated) Come back-back-back need I need something fuck-k this is work-work-working some Jesus Christ I'm trying to have a good day (repeated) Come back, Trying to have a good day (repeated) Come back-back-back need I need something fuck-k this is work-work-working some Jesus Christ I'm trying to have a good day (repeated) Come back, Trying to have a good day (repeated)
7.	Furious Fever Ridden Plague Mind Delusion 04:36	lyrics	buy track
Running in circles feeling like it wont work Circles Feeling like nothing works (repeated) Running in circles God look at my halo it is rich and gold I just wanna feel like I belong and know that I never will So just kill me at the cross and start anew ??? This is the end You wanna lay your arms down and just fucking die I tell you why ??? ??? This is the end You wanna lay your arms down and just fucking die I tell you why Running in circles feeling like it wont work Circles Feeling like nothing works (repeated) Running in circles God look at my halo it is rich and gold I just wanna feel like I belong and know that I never will So just kill me at the cross and start anew Running in circles baby, running in circles Running in circles, running in circles save me Running in circles baby, running in circles Running in circles, running in circles save me ??? This is the end You wanna lay your arms down and just fucking die I tell you why Running in circles feeling like it wont work Circles Feeling like nothing works (repeated) Running in circles God look at my halo it is rich and gold I just wanna feel like I belong and know that I never will So just kill me at the cross and start anew
8.	Dominate Me 02:45	lyrics	buy track
Won't you dominate me, I like to feel like I'm a baby What the fuck does that mean? That's wack as shit hahahaa Won't you dominate me, wo-wo-won't you I like to feel (repeated) Carefully eclectic ill be carefully electric Tear up your respect luck be a demon Lean in to receive a feeling Talking to random girls ask for molly Now I'm seething Reeling like a big catch the day is my Carpe diem Hit you in the dm's asking for a collab Wrist watch don't wear em List of topics for casual conversation Live inside a nation No face no station Play myself like PlayStation Haha get it because its a gaming station get it get it Fuck Won't you dominate me, wo-wo-won't you I like to feel (repeated) Right Take me back to obsessing or something An undressing of my bewildered mind Scape the runes like your looking for some doubloons Nothing here but a time sink Sink into the couch since its broken Never brush your teeth its broken Learn to live and laugh and love or something That's what normal people do Any who how about we get fucked up Calling out to Pikachu Recording on our cellular videos of a lost era Never coming to the surface What's the matter? Turn the curtains back like the clocks that do not matter
9.	Necessary Ignorance 00:54	lyrics	buy track
In the foreground, Santa Claus secures reindeer carcasses to the ceiling of his workshop They drip blood, onto the droopy festive hats of the elves A vivid warning from management that productivity goals must be attained The reindeer have been freshly, savagely slaughtered Viscera still spilling from the vicious gashes across their midsections Beautiful brushwork emphasizes the eyes of the deer They gaze back at us without surprise or fear, resigned to their fate The elves, pretend not to notice any of this even as they slip and stumble on the slick sticky floor
10.	Fur 03:49	lyrics	buy track
AHHHHHHHH FUUUUCK Jesus Christ! Oh daddy where's the tallest building? I need to jump off something, something Oh daddy where's the feeling left after all the things that matter do not matter? Oh daddy where the fuck am I going? How the fuck do I even keep on moving? God's here Some like it hot but I'm feeling a lot I'd rather be frost bitten dying in the snow its so cold please hold me tight I don't wanna spend another night crying out my eyes Feel like its suicide on my mind and I'm looking for a reason Nothing ever changes but the seasons, nothing will be the same I'm in pain everyday of my life its not right, I'm in pain everyday of my life Feel like I'm dying, feel like I'm dying Feel's like the end of my rope I don't have any hope for me left I just wanna repent for my sins (ohhh for my sins) Please tell me friend will you hold my hand? As I lay at the alter looking for my father Its not as it seems, I've been screaming for weeks I just need someone to take my life Just keep going, its all about the music nothing else matters its all about the music
11.	It's Their Fucking Fault 07:54	lyrics	buy track
The internet ruined me ill never be the same again porn is the devil (THE DEVIL) porn is evil (YOUR DISGUSTING) never do that again (how could you) porn is the devil (the devil) Porn is evil (YOUR A FUCKING DISGRACE) kill yourself innocence lost (innocence gone) help me... (PORN IS EVIL) May god have mercy on your soul (repent repent repent) god save us all (porn is evil) Lord have mercy on my soul (have you accepted Jesus into your fucking heart) Kill yourself FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU AHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH god is always watching why would he even forgive me, why would he even forgive someone like me? (GOD IS ALWAYS WATCHING) Who are you to tell me what to do? (MOTHERS ALWAYS WATCHING, Mothers always watching mothers always right) I would never disobey you mother I love you gods here gods here gods here gods here gods here gods here gods here gods here gods here gods here If Jesus Christ won't listen I'll give him something to ponder I've got a fucking gun in my mouth I wonder I wonder who the fuck is behind me in the mirror I wonder who the fuck is out there I wanna feel something, I'm fucking you in the god damn mouth like I said before its a metaphor you motherfucker I'll never even be the same person I'll never even wonder I'll never even stare at the sun I'll tear you asunder I don't even give a fuck I don't even wanna know who the fuck you are and who the fuck is approaching me Look behind you no ones following me always check, check an hour later I'm paranoid as fuck, nobody knows who the fuck I am I feel like I'm going to lose my fucking mind I'm losing myself, I'm losing myself in the insanity I feel like its nothing that ever matter that I fucking cared I fuck your mom with a fucking gun, God hates you I hate you more than anybody, I hate you more than myself, I hate you more than anybody ever could ever would and ever did Fuck God, Its over The pitter patter of the brain matter splatters The gun in my mouth for Jesus like I said before its all I ever wondered about I just want to tell you a little story I just want to tell you a little secret Fuck you I hate you so much I cant even feel my fucking eyes, I'm trying to stare through the screen Through everything my demise I just wanted to feel like its not my time But it always is my time, I just need a little something to put me to sleep I'm gonna drink, I'm gonna drink, I'm gonna fucking drink again I don't know why the fuck I keep doing this to my friends, keep doing This to my head, keep doing this to myself Everything is not for my health its for my ?? fuck you I just need to feel a little bit of joy, little bit of cheer for my fucking fears Its not anybody's fault but mine I just wanted to tell you a little story a little secret of mine I just wanted to tell you a little story a little secret of mine I just wanted to tell you a little fucking story a little secret of mine Stop Everything is not as it seems, everything makes me wonder, wonder about my dreams Everything makes me steal the thunder in my seams If porn is the devil I wonder what happened to my mental Stick tock the fuck bitch clock and kill you I kill you with my thoughts its not even the same I don't want to feel this way I'm always in pain, I'm always thinking about being in pain, I'm always thinking about how to save my own day I'm always thinking about how to feel this way, I'm always thinking I'm never stopping, I'm never going to stop thinking Its always the same, its always the same time stops for no man but I'm gonna fucking shoot God with my hands
12.	"Not I" Said The Walking Clock 05:26	lyrics	buy track
tick tock, tick tock pitter patter pick the lock mm my dad's here (I'm at the chipotle) I don't wanna feel like this anymore ooh (repeated) Oo hit the boys up Got this drink in my cup Oo hit the boys up Oo-o I hit them up (repeated) 2015 and I'm losing my mind Time to get lit cuz you know its our time (repeated) Ooh my wonderous delusion I wonder who's including? I feel like I'm snoozing and I know how you move it oh yeah hit that shit up like I wish you were a bitch oh yah yah yah Ooh number four, number four, number four (repeated) Four forty four now I'm knocking at your door woo woo woo woo hit that bitch online woo on a fuckin mission for the squad gang gang on a fuckin mission for the squad gang Going on a fucking mission for the squad midnight Feeling like I'm swishing and I hit up the bitches I got hunnid dollar bills in my pocket walk it Wocky slush in my eyelids now I'm hitting lock it "I drink to forget but I always remember" (I'm at the chipotle) Oo hit the boys up Got this drink in my cup Oo hit the boys up Oo-o I hit them up (repeated) 2015 and I'm losing my mind Time to get lit cuz you know its our time (repeated) I don't give fuck cuz it sucks, I don't give fuck cuz I rip like a duck Yuh I don't give fuck cuz I rip like a duck yuh (repeated) Run around town like a back head I fuck bitch and I like that ????? Four forty four now I'm knocking at your door woo woo woo woo hit that bitch online woo on a fuckin mission for the squad gang gang on a fuckin mission for the squad gang Going on a fucking mission for the squad midnight Feeling like I'm swishing and I hit up the bitches I got hunnid dollar bills in my pocket walk it Wocky slush in my eyelids now I'm hitting lock it Oo hit the boys up Got this drink in my cup Oo hit the boys up Oo-o I hit them up (repeated) "I drink to forget but I always remember" Oo hit the boys up Got this drink in my cup Oo hit the boys up Oo-o I hit them up (repeated) 2015 and I'm losing my mind Time to get lit cuz you know its our time (repeated)
13.	Teeth Brigade 03:05	lyrics	buy track
(I have no idea what I'm saying in the first few verses) My AD's in HD, no ones gonna save me Feelin' broken lately whats it take to hate me? Breathing down my own neck half alive behind myself Reach inside to find the time Who's hour is it yours or mine? Breathing am I breathing? Lost the plot now he's scheming Another heist another night a frigid rigid fight Light up another one gas lit keep me warm Safety no safety everyone must hate me Fuck the noise feeding off mildew But its you who do wrong to feel off not on Lean on a fortress barbed wire sores twitch Which side are you even on? Him's and hers no thought occurs, feverish delusion (I feel some strange energy) Ambient occlusion with no solutions Sucking down brave fluid always lucid Catch the heat now my body's getting lewded ?????????????? Teeth brigade (repeated)
14.	I'm Still Going 05:18	lyrics	buy track
Alright, for real this time Cuz I'm still going, I'm trucking along I'm still going and I'll sing you a song (repeated) Feel like a cloud wistful endlessness' in the everlasting sky (repeated) Cuz I'm still going, I'm trucking along I'm still going and I'll sing you a song (repeated) Feel like a cloud wistful endlessness' in the everlasting sky (repeated) Ohooh my I'm feeling like the time and the miles and the days just keep adding on, adding on, adding on, adding on, adding on, adding on, adding on Feel like a cloud wistful endlessness' in the everlasting sky (repeated)
15.	My Friend 02:10	lyrics	buy track
Oh my ??? and I just want to feel understood ooo oo oo And I wonder where dad is oooh oooh oooo And I wonder how feelings are insecure but I don't want to tell you Fuck you, you little shitty boy Fuck you, you little bitch Fuck you oooOoooooo oohhh ooOoOoohh I stand here at the top of the precipice of all knowledge oh There you are God I see your face some to greet me in my bedroom ceiling I cant believe what I'm seeing I cant even feel a thing Overwhelmed with the warmth of love and joy I have felt all this pain for so long I am happy to say you are my friend now I am not ever gonna forget how you helped me but I need something to quell this Evil in my heart I just need to tell the world all about my fucking art Before I explode Oh yah, oh yah, oh yah, oh yah.....

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CONTENT WARNING: This album includes very explicit lyrics that explore very dark and intense themes, such as depression and trauma. It's quite possibly the darkest and most depressive album on this label insofar, so listen at your discretion. Thanks! ~EL

Lovely Abyss is a weirdcore maestro whose works span themes of dread, anxiety, and craziness. They've produced a MASSIVE body of work-- including daily albums all throughout this year!! And now, we are immensely proud to be re-releasing their magnum opus (so far!): Manic Mansion / Gran Steak Lounge, two halves of a whole album! This is part 2 of the duology.

A cathartic atomic-proportioned explosion of an album. This hourlong journey employs noize-y beats and electronic instruments that genuinely sound as anxious as the lyrics. Genuinely frightening yet extra compelling, you'll see (er, hear) Lovely Abyss navigate a landscape of agony. It's not sugarcoated by any means, but it is honest and offers some solace all the same. Plus, it's insanely catchy too! Enjoy! And don't miss the companion release, Manic Mansion!⟶ fakenumberland.bandcamp.com/album/manic-mansion-the-will-to-live

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released May 13, 2023

Music and art by Lovely Abyss = lovelyabyss.bandcamp.com + onedoneproject.bandcamp.com

Track 9 words/vocal by H. Anthony Hildebrand

Originally released on Ghost Nun on October 31, 2022 as GN0013 = ghostnunmusic.bandcamp.com/album/gran-steak-lounge-the-fortitude-of-will [eyestrain warning!]

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